Update: I've talked through the phone with my uncle and he told me that my system got ruined, it needs reinstalling.
Unfortunately he won't have time sooner than next weekend, because he goes to Warsaw for some business for a week.
Weirda planned to stop procrastination?
Even start doing one-shot comics?
NOPE, YOUR LIFE SHALL SUCK FOREVER
- - -THIS IS IMPORTANT JOURNAL! It's because I'm a digital artist
As you've read in the title, my computer won't start. The worst scenario happened since my father did a specific thing few years ago...
Lemme explain and please understand- even if it's weird, even if it's unbelievable to you, it's real.
I'm an "owl" person, especially that with my ADHD-kinda scatterbrain extravertic mom I just have peaceful time to focus in the late evening and night. Once or two upon a time, when I've got to know some people here, I happened to stay even till 2:00 at night to chat with them, because I knew I don't have to wake up early the next day.
My dad is hypocrite, adamant and pretty dominanting, if not just dominanting in nature.
He's a mechanican(or rather, was) and as you know or not, mechanican nowadays has to be electrican as well.
I've promissed my father to go to bed at the latest at 1:00 at night, because I told him- I want to have sometimes those 15 minutes of quick chat with people from the other side of globe instead of waiting for a reply ~8 hours if there's a topic we want to continue.
He decided around 3 years ago(or 4?) that he'll install/connect a small device to shut down the power exactly at 1:00.
SORRY IF YOU'RE CONFUSED, MY ENGLISH AND OVERALL KNOWLEDGE AIN'T ENOUGH TO EXPLAIN IT BETTER.
I go to sleep around 0:30 since long time, but I have days when I sit a little longer.
I know sometimes the system asks for an update and this can take hella long....and my system often doesn't inform me about updates, only when I have to shut it down. I never know if there are 3 or 33.
Sometimes there have been interrupted system updates downloads, but then I started the system the next day and shut it down to let it download the rest, then started again and used it.
I once decided to uninstall the device as I stopped to sit too long at night AND as I knew it's important to let system download updates without interrupting.
One day dad was had to check cables around my computer, he discovered what I did(even with the letter of my apologizes and my words "I think you don't treat me as an adult person and you don't trust me", so HE GOT MAD.
Since that day, the words "I don't trust you?!" are repeated at me with a pointed finger when he gets angry.
This is why I'm often mute or say not enough- because once I am honest, sh** happens. :Y
Today, after yesterday's updates download interruption my computer won't start. There's a comunicate about a .dll file that is not designed to run on Windows and it contains an error. I've send a photo of it to my uncle, hoping he'll have time this weekend to repair(?) this.
Sigh, being a digital artist that is right at the moment of no-procrastinating sucks.
Same as my life. I always wanted to love and appreciate my father unlike my two older brothers, but seems there's no other option than to follow them (no, I don't wanna die like my first brother, not yet)
That's why, I can only use my dad's laptop and maybe my cousin's comouter for few hours per day to log in here and do somthing with my message box guys. Because I have some priorities to check in the internet, I have even less time to reply you.
And I'm really sorry if I made you upset- I didn't meant that!