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Desperation

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Don't take it too serious. I am not in apathy,depression or sadness, but in strong desperation.
I cannot get how to draw people faces, while I have seriously a mood to draw them, try, find my style- or rather...what style I'll follow.

I have some artists I like they way they draw eyes, but my hand cannot copy it...or because I don't want to copy, or worse- my hand simply
cannot do it. It's something with my perception; I look, I see, but I cannot notice and understand.

Every face I tried to draw made me struggle, especially with the eyes.
Yes, I took breaks.
Yes, I look how other people draw(I mean the style I adore)

I think I have some kind of misantrophy now.

Ironically, drawing this relaxed me. I throw what was inside me and turning hair into vains or tendon relaxed me too, because it's creative.

If you call this drawing as a nightmare, I'll tell my only one true nightamare enough strong to wake me up:

empty city, evening. One guy follows me with a knife maybe and says "I'll kill you because of who you aaree"

with a beastly, yet human breath of obsession and excitement, I heard he will be really happy to torture and kill me slowly
just because of who I am.

I managed to lost him, hide in the building where was a little attic, I packed myself in tight corner, where was small window, but I was hidden
and not visible. I saw him passing street, under 15 metres below.

I lean from the window slowly. There was no sound of creaking,but...steps. And his breath. Coming closer and closer and just too much-I waked up.

sigh...I know some people have worse,more creepy nightmares, but my worst is always that someone wants to kill me just because of who I am.
That's all.
NOTE: THIS HAPPENED TO ME THREE YEARS AGO, since 2 years I haven't gotany such nightmares or even bad dreams.

Hope I won't give you nightamres ;A; please go watch something stupid on youtube to forget this sketch.
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Jay-Law's avatar
You draw humans just fine. I can't draw at all well, but I know what I don't like - art-wise - as much as what I do like.
And your Trainers Training was very acceptable.
Not fine-detailed or 'perfect', but no ugly noses, no eyes-too-close-together, and no gigantic mouths.
It's all good! ^-^